A day in the life of Flea...

flea23 — Mon, 09 May 2011 05:51:27 +0000

What is there to say? Gee i don’t know anymore. My children are the most important thing in my life, I will do anything for them. But right now I can’t even give them the basics that they need. School clothes and a good lunch for school. I look around and I can’t believe how people have got their priorities all wrong> Everything is about the biggest car and the biggest house. The fancy jewellery and the expensive holidays, the best parties and most fun on the weekend.

People to tell me to get moving and make things happen, sometimes I think that all I need is a little bit of help to get me there.

People say that you don’t need money to spend family time together and do fun things on the weekend, I agree with this, it costs nothing to go to the beach or sit in the garden and have a picnic with my kids, the problem is that I am not living life, I am constantly worrying about where their next meal is coming from and how I am going to get them to school. Yes, I have a job and I am so grateful for that you have no idea but life is expensive…

All I’m asking for is a bit of a break, just to be able to give my children what they need, is that so much to ask?
Please?

Too Busy

flea23 — Wed, 05 Jan 2011 10:29:11 +0000

We are too busy to say Good Morning
to make that extra special lunch
to give one last kiss before leaving
to ask how someone REALLY is
to watch that silly programme on tv
to play outside
to help those who need it
to watch the rain
to spend time with those who really matter
to care

One day we will realise that we’ve been too busy, BUT it will be too late…

Bad Mood!

flea23 — Thu, 07 Oct 2010 10:37:44 +0000

I’m pretty much in a bad mood today.

Why?

1. I do NOT want to be at work.
2. My 2yr old decided today was the day he was going to scream solidly for an hour before school.
3. I have a migraine from hell.
4. People are just plain stupid.
5. Oh, and that’s right – my so-called best friend stole my brand new company idea for herself and now I have to start all over again with something new!!!!!!!!!
6. I still don’t have a new house to move into.
7. People pretend to care, but they don’t really.
8. I hate quite a lot of things right now.
9. Some people are selfish pigs who don’t deserve to be called human.
10. I care too much about some people who actually don’t care whether I live or die.
11. I haven’t slept in 3 days and I can’t eat anything.

HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What the hell?

flea23 — Thu, 07 Oct 2010 10:19:07 +0000

You think you know someone, and then Bam! they take everything from you. Everything you have worked so hard for. Completely blindsided.
Now I have to start all over again, so thank you, you know who you are… unfortunately you will never read this. But know this – the wheel turns and when it does, I hope you understand what you have done.

I’m pretty strong these days so I will pick myself up and show everyone, including you, that I am a better person than you are.

I am tired!

flea23 — Wed, 18 Aug 2010 10:20:48 +0000

I don’t even know how to write this. I am so angry right now. I am so trapped. I can’t leave my job because I need an income and they know this. I am tired of being treated like dirt. I am tired of being told that I have no respect for people who don’t even know the meaning of the word. I am tired of trying to stand up for myself every single day. I am tired of being victimised.
I am tired of being pushed down and stamped on.

I am tired of being told to stop throwing my toys out the cot. There is no logic, there is no fairness, there is no justice. Just a group of people who abuse their power so that they can feel better about themselves.
I am tired of bullies and everything that they stand for.

I don’t want to be here anymore, I can’t deal with it anymore. I am tired, very tired…

Just keep swimming!

flea23 — Tue, 17 Aug 2010 05:45:16 +0000

Just when I think everything is running so smoothly and I will be out of here in 4 months something comes and steals the wind from my sails. I feel like someone punched me in the stomach and took my breath away. I refuse to sit here any longer, I WILL be out by December. I will just continue my dream on a different path. Just when you think you can trust someone -bang! They stab you in the back out of nowhere…

Right! Finished now, it’s a new day and my possibilities are endless.
Oh and thank you to the sweetie pie who cheered up my day, as always….:)

I’m sick:(

flea23 — Mon, 24 May 2010 10:17:23 +0000

I woke up on Saturday morning and that was that – sick. I hate being sick, I really do. Luckily for me, my kids were away for the entire weekend and only came back this morning so I slept and slept aaannnd slept. Pathetic really, I could have done anything I wanted to, but I slept…

I feel like death, I’m at work, feeling sorry for myself and don’t really care about the powers that be and their insignificant problems right now -speak to the freaking hand….
Um, that is all…

Living at home again

flea23 — Wed, 21 Apr 2010 10:25:49 +0000

After 8 years of being away from home and my parents, I am back, but only for a month or two. This time with my 2 kids and way too much stuff to put anywhere.
It’s quite different being home as I can do what I want but I still feel that I shouldn’t – insane I know.

There’s also the constant issue of telling my children what to do, when to bath, what to eat and what not to eat. Then I get ” mom, come onnnnnnnnnnnnn?”

I’m really starting to need my space again. Like putting the kids to bed and doing whatever I want, even it means staring into space for an hour (this can be very relaxing by the way). And not having to have conversations about everything- and I mean EVERYTHING! Some nights I don’t feel like talking ok? I just want to sit and do nothing and think nothing.

But I guess this is something we have to deal with when living at home, but I can’t wait to be myself again:)

Frogs…

flea23 — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 10:20:05 +0000

My baby boy is 20 months old and I found out this weekend just how scared he is of frogs.

I didn’t think he would even notice them to be quite honest, unfortunately there was one in the bathroom on Saturday night and I think if he could’ve crawled back where he came from, he would’ve.

Then I asked him to pick up his plastic, squeaky frog for the bath and he jumped on the bed screaming : ‘ oh nooooooo, mum, oh nooooo’.

Of course this situation is perfect for a big sister who would like to take revenge on an irritating little brother. Every time she walks past him, she whispers ‘frog’ in his ear and then falls over laughing when he starts freaking out.

I so love my kiddies…

What I want.

flea23 — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 10:41:57 +0000

I want it to be Friday.
I want a beautiful sunny day.
I want chocolate ice-cream.
I want to listen to my favourite song on the radio.

I want to picnic on the grass with my kids.
I want to catch up with my best friends.
I want to spend time with my family.

I want my children to be happy.
I want to be happy.
I want to be needed.
I want to be loved.
I want to watch the sunset with the love of my life.

But most of all, I want to be me.